I'm having a terrible month here. I'm in a cluster (Episodic cluster headache) that just won't break.  My clusters are usually 3-5 weeks but it's been 7 now.  The Dr.'s will only give me 8 Imitrex shots (gifts from God) every 30 days but I need 1/day.  So having to "procure" them from alternate sources is wearing all my sources thin.  (A big thank you to Mike-stratosdadri for the hook up, he's saved the day a few times already)

So I am trying to remain working through this cluster as I don't want to let my boss down during xmas, the manager I have now is very understanding and top notch.  That's not going so well.  The "in-house" assignments are expended, everything is caught up.  Yesterday, I had an eye full of blood, couldn't work like that (for the customers sake)  so, the money is now not only thin but this is the time of yr that I pack on the dough to fund my fishing trips for '08.  Definitely can't afford the classic now.

So today, I only had 2 hits from the beast last night, good tto work.  Exhausted,....but broke.  Called the boss, he had a nice route for me (easy one)  So I dress and go to leave.....dead battery.  Cables are in Michelles car, she's on her way to work. AAA takes too long, I need to start work in 1/2 hr.  Call the boss and he just says "I'm covering the route, get your **** together"

I HATE letting him down and now I'm even deeper in debt.

One of my main mentors on the ocean, Capt Bill has stage 4 bone cancer so we have been rotating spending the nights with him.  Just got a call, his femur broke last night.....in his sleep!  He's hospitalized now.

then, to top it off, I put my foot in my mouth by not being educated enough and am pretty sure I pizzed off a major sponsor on the Gore-tex thread (sponsor of mine, not the sites).  Now, sure, as a mod, I could go back and edit/delete but if I don't have my integrity, what do I have?  Plus,...I would like to hold myself to the standards Glenn expects of his team and that would be just wrong to do.

I know my problems are trivial when compared to others, I just hate it when life turns against you for a little while.  It will turn back, of this I am sure.  I have surrounded myself with too many good people (Y'all included).  I have friends, love and support.  I need to just keep reminding myself of these things.

It's just NOT MY MONTH!!  CALGON..........take me away. :-/

Vent over.

Sorry to hear of the rough times going on with you LBH right now. Chin up, things will turn around and get better, they always do...

Russ, sorry to hear you're not doing so well. Is there anything else the doctors can do for the pain besides the Imitrex?

I have chronic spine pain (take morphine and Percocet daily) but I can at least function most of the time with the meds.

I hope this monster leaves you alone soon. I'll keep you in my prayers.

Take care,

Rick

You guys are great and thanks for the PM Wayne

I didn't post this for a pity party, I just needed to write it out.  Feels better already.

Rick- The pain is not like any other and this includes it's treatments.  The Imitrex closes the veins and capillaries which kills the pain.  Morph, codones, stuff like that are actually triggers for many.  You know the normal headache you get when the perc's wear off?  Those turn into a cluster headache and come with multiple rebounds.

I know this sounds dumb but try to stay positive.  I know of a book if your interested will help you focus on positive things going in your life even if you feel there isn't.   If your interested pm me I will give you details

I know this sounds dumb but try to stay positive.  I know of a book if your interested will help you focus on positive things going in your life even if you feel there isn't.   If your interested pm me I will give you details

Well, God knows I got the time......  I'm always up for a good read.  Thanks

Don't worry Russ, I didn't see it as a pitty party. I'm in the same boat, on those days the meds don't help I just have to vent some how.

Rick

Hang in there dude.

headaches aren't the only thing that come in clusters.

When chit happens it often happens in the dozens.

THIS TOO SHALL PASS.

I PM'd YOU Russ

just remember you could be fishing from a canoe someday

just remember you could be fishing from a canoe someday

If it's the SS Avid,...things could be much worse  That thing is just plain cool.

Not a pity party - didn't come across that way. Helps to get things off your chest and I have found writing really helps (need to do some myself, but just can't right now) - especially when you read it back to yourself and realize that 1) its real 2) its happening to me and 3) ideas start surfacing that can help and/or alleviate some of things going on - nothing like seeing your own story in front of you to provide some perspective. You seem to have a real good attitude and no doubt you will be fine.

Can't imagine trying to carry on life with those headaches.

As far as the Gore-Tex concern. I think it says a lot about person, when they make a stand, become educated as you noted, then revise that stand based upon a new understanding/knowledge that they have received/obtained. Would think that your sponsor and other readers could appreciate that.

Just hang in there - you seem like a survivor and no doubt will be fine - attitude right now is great in spite of everything. Besides, just said a prayer for you.

Take care.

Calm down dude, deep breath. Just realize certain things are out of your control, and if the big man leads you to it, he will lead you through it.

I really, really, really love this place.  It's so much more than just a fishing forum sometimes.

I appreciate all the support

Plus could be worse, there could be ice on you know where already. Just trying to cheer you up.

Plus could be worse, there could be ice on you know where already. Just trying to cheer you up.

Another good point

Hey Russ,

Sorry to hear you are having a rough time. Hang in there. The bible says -"we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character, and character, hope." Rom. 5:3

Praying for your headaches to subside.

Ronnie

LBH,

My dad has a similar problem with migraines.  He took Imitrex for a long time, (it was a total lifesaver to him), and he started getting used to it.  Now, he's recently started on a new migraine medicine, a new one that just came out.  When I get home, I'll look up the name of it.  Maybe it will help your headaches.  

Alpster's words are very true, I couldn't have said it better myself.  

 One day as I sat musing sad and lonely, a voice came to me from out of the gloom saying "Cheer up, things could be worse." So, I cheered up, and sure enough... things got WORSE :-? :-? ;D...  

                                                 As Ever,

                                                  skillet

BTW most of us here have had one of those months. We're always here

Good timber does not grow with ease,

the stronger the wind the stronger the trees.

J. Williard Marriott

Good timber does not grow with ease,

the stronger the wind the stronger the trees.

J. Williard Marriott

Hey Joe you may want to change the L at the end of your handle to an N after that one  ZEN

Your a very positive dude, LBH (more than most would be in your situation). If good things don't happen for you, then we're all done for!

Zel Zen- I LOVE quotes like that-Thanks

Slo- I feel kind of stupid putting this up now. (although I do feel much better and a bit overwhelmed by the support quite frankly) because my problems aren't life threatening, like many folks. My family is strong. My friends are numerous and real. Most of this will pass. even Capt. Bill. He doesn't deserve the pain he is in. I'll always cherish knowing him and not everyone passes with people who feel that way about them. My job too,...it will be there tomorrow and there are FAMILIES that don't have the opportunity to earn the living that I have the option to.

We have kids at war, hunger in the streets and lunatics shooting up our schools, the one place we can't protect our children.

It's all about perspective and I just need to re focus my binoculars.

Thanks again to everyone, near and far, you're support and PM's have had an amazing effect and are very potent. Tomorrow is a new day and my tree trunk will be stronger

That's the LBH I know.  You sound more like yourself now.  Hey man, we all have our days, some more than others unfortunately.  There have been quite a few days on here where I read your posts and can feel the enthusiasm you project just by reading your words.  You have cheered me up quite a few times and don't even realize it.  Thanks for that!  

Blaine,

just remember you could be fishing from a canoe someday

If it's the SS Avid,...things could be much worse  That thing is just plain cool.

Dear Muddy,

I can't beleive Avid's canoe has a name now!! ;D ;D ;Dlol

                           Our prayers our with you man.