I’m very sorry to hear about this. Will include my prayers for you and yours.

I'm very sorry you are going through this, Tom. We're all here for you. 💛

They have Lap of Love option now where the vet comes to your home and sedates the pet before giving them a fatal shot while the pet is in you lap and not stressed, relaxed a good way to go. 
Thank you all for your well wishes.

My wife has a pet scan to determine where she is, we get the results this week🙏.

Tom

So sorry to hear all the difficulties you and yours are having. None of it makes any sense to us. My wife and I run a cat rescue. We take in ferals and those with broken bodies, broken trust, and broken spirits. This then becomes their forever home as we don't adopt out. We'll treat, rehab, and train them and in doing so we develop bonds and relationships with all of them. Some learn non verbal hand signals and others learn just to behave and play nice with others. We have 39, all inside. When we lose one it's devastating. It doesn't get easier. I have found solace in the following:

 

"Grief is not just an emotion—it’s an unraveling, a space where something once lived but is now gone. It carves through you, leaving a hollow ache where love once resided.

In the beginning, it feels unbearable, like a wound that will never close. But over time, the raw edges begin to mend. The pain softens, but the imprint remains—a quiet reminder of what once was. The truth is, you never truly "move on." You move with it. The love you had does not disappear; it transforms. It lingers in the echoes of laughter, in the warmth of old memories, in the silent moments where you still reach for what is no longer there. And that’s okay.

Grief is not a burden to be hidden. It is not a weakness to be ashamed of. It is the deepest proof that love existed, that something beautiful once touched your life. So let yourself feel it. Let yourself mourn. Let yourself remember.

There is no timeline, no “right” way to grieve. Some days will be heavy, and some will feel lighter. Some moments will bring unexpected waves of sadness, while others will fill you with gratitude for the love you were lucky enough to experience.

Honor your grief, for it is sacred. It is a testament to the depth of your heart. And in time, through the pain, you will find healing—not because you have forgotten, but because you have learned how to carry both love and loss together." - Jim Carrey

 

Prayers, good energies and good medicine coming your way....